I couldn’t find a place to share a creative writing piece. I know... cheesy. I’ve found over the years tho it is the only way I’m capable of expressing myself. While I’ve recently been working on short stories, possible scripts, and comedy routines I felt the need to share this piece with literally anyone.
As I sink I forget to drown
I just go lower and lower
it’s like I’ve been here before
But somehow I don’t recognize this place anymore
I thought I was broken
I’m not sure I really knew what that meant
I’m not sure I do now
I’ve always wanted to die.
Never felt like I belong here anyways
But there were never reasons before
I just...wanted to
Now things are different
In a dynamic world, I’ve found myself on a steep downslope to nothingness
I’m ashamed of who I am
My being makes me sick
There’s this taste in my mouth, but I can’t place it
I wish I never was
Maybe then the people I love could be free of the anchor that I’ve become
Every time I think I’m right
Or okay
I’m reminded that I never will be
Every time I open myself up
Become vulnerable
I’m reminded why I boarded those doors in a past life
I let go long ago
So why am I still fighting