The Poems are originally made by myself.. It's not the best.. I hope some advise about my poems
Thank you..
I can't say anything anymore..
The only I can do is hoping..
I only have a little time before I go..
I only hope the best for you..
I can't do anything and I can't hold it anymore..
Maybe soon will be my time to say good bye..
It's hard..
But..
I've to..
Bye
What I've done?
I almost forgot the one who cares for me that have love me and be there for me?
Distance wont matter at all..
But..
Heart thats matter.. A heart to love someone care to someone and be there for someone..
Nobody's perfect in this world..
Nobody can do all the things that you want..
But..
That person will try..
And there's a special space in this heart for those people that I care about and that I love..
Sometimes we need someone to make us forget about our problems..
We need someone to make us smile feeling comfortable and feel we want to live again..
Because when we lost our way when we lost our hope when we lost our purpose, we should remember those people who love us and care for us..
Don't break their heart, and I know you won't break their heart..
Live for yourself..
And live for the people that still here care for you and love you because once you're gone they will lost someone inside their heart..
Youre right there sitting next to me
But..
I can even say what is inside my heart to you
Im to scared on losing someone that I love
Im to scared that youre go away avoid me and I cant protect you anymore
Im sitting here quitly hiding my feelings even my heart crying right now
I cant even speak a word..
Its hurts.. hurts a lot..
It feels like a knife cuts my blood veins
I dont know until when I can hide this feeling from her
I dont know for how long I can stand
Im just a weak person to weak
If I had a chance just a chance
Its sad.. so sad..
Im using a mask right now to keep me smile infront of her
A mask to hide my tears to hide my sadness
Till that times come when Im ready to say to you I love you
I feel so useless..
Im nothing even in my eyes Im nothing..
Im sorry I cant even protect you, protect your heart..
Im just a f**king ******* that keep silence in here..
A silence just silence..
And I only can look at you and watching you from a distances..
Ive try and try to touch you but I cant..
The only thing I can do now is pretending, pretend that I have no feelings with her..
Yes..
I lie to myself..
I lie that I said I dont love her..
I lie that I said I dont need her beside me
I lie Im living in a lie..
Lying to my heart so I can be fine..
But..
Those smile those laugh, it just as fake..
Can I be yours?
Thats the question inside my brain inside my heart and I cant answer it till now..
What if I try to avoid you will you ask me why?
What if I gone? Will you find me?
What if I cry will you wipe my tears?
Will you even try to make me laugh when im sad?
Will you?
Can I always be there beside you when you know that I love you?
I feel so happy because youre sitting there beside me
But..
I cant really speak much things right now..
Every I close my eyes I see you
Please dont go away..
Please dont avoid me..
Because I cant hold it anymore..
Because I love you
Ask you know as you fade away..
Avoiding me by ignoring me..
Is it a wrong thing?
Am I wrong?
Or do I did something wrong?
It comes again those feelings..
Despate feelings sadness and sorrow..
The deeper I think of it the more this sadness comes..
Loving someone that never be with you..
Hoping something that will never happen..
Only tears that I can show to you..
With silence I can say that I love you
In sadness I can be there beside you..
For how long its gonna be..
Lying to myself and to you..
Because Im scared losing you..
Im just a clown..
Someone that will wipe your tears..
Will erase you sadness..
And I gonna make you smile again..
Because I didnt wanna see you living in the sadness like I do..
Ive been there so many times and I dont want that happen to you..
Being a clown is it enough?
You dont have to think or care about my heart..
Because I dont even think of it..
Because I care about your heart..
Because I care all the little things about you..
Thats why Im standing right here looking at you and thinking about you..
I dont care how many water will drops from my eyes
But I care and I dont want even just a water drop from your eyes..
Me..
I dont have anything except a heart for you..
The answer its in you will you accept this heart or not..
I cry when I see you cry..
And Ill smile when I see you smile
Im just a reflect of yourself..
An automatic machine that accept people sadness and change it into laugh..
I miss your smile..
Thats why I wanna make you smile again..
So I can see those beautiful smile in your face and in your heart..
Sitting down here and waiting for you to come is one of the things I can do..
I cant speak out if youre there sitting down there right beside me..
I can read your mind but I cant read your heart..
I dont know who am I in your eyes..
Year by year pass by..
Living in a regret..
And tears won't stop falling down..
If I can have my last chance I will hug her and say I love you..
But..
I don't have that chance..
Its already too late..
Is it wrong to cry?
I miss those love
A pure love from heart to heart
A love that never be separate even by distance or time or even world
A love that touch my heart..
With a soft voice she taught me everything..
She gonna smile even she feel so tired..
She always remind me when I do something stupid..
She always be there beside me when i'm sad..
She know the way how to calm me down when i cried..
But..
Why you gone so fast?
Why you left me here alone?
Why you say "good bye"?
Why you leave without any sign?
And..
Thanks..
Thanks for always be there for me when I'm sad even we are in the different wold you still come..
Thanks for the lesson you have taught me..
Thanks for you never ending love..
Thanks for everything..
I love you
I'm so happy I can meet you even it just for awhile..
Yes you, the only girl inside this heart..
I don't why but my heart choose you..
I'm falling down into your heart..
I wanna hold your hand till my last time..
Hug you tight until my last breath..
I wanna grow with you..
And die lying beside you..
I wanna make you smile..
I promise to you right now..
I'll change to be a better person for you..
Because I see something different in your eyes..
I see the meaning of life in your eyes..
I love you..
I love to be a loner..
Here is the place I belong..
I'm just an anti-social..
I fight alone..
Then I'll die alone..
For some reason I don't care about mu life..
Sometimes I just want to close my eyes and never get awake..
I hate society..
I'm not the part of this society..
I use to hate myself..
But..
There's someone out there care about me..
I used to give up but I can't..
I don't want to hurt them..
But..
I don't know for how long I can survive..
I'm getting to tired of this ****..
This life is tiring..
I used to use my mask..
Showing a fake smile..
I don't till when I will use this mask..
I hope someone will open it..
I'm falling in love you i don't know why but I love you..
I dreamed about you last night..
I don't know what to say until we laugh on ***** things..
I cried when I think about you..
Tears falling down but I don't know why..
My heart choose you..
Will you open your heart for me?
I wanna hold your hand, walk beside you and be there for you till my last breath..
Maybe I will gone soon..
But..
You yes you.. You give me strength support me teach me how to laugh..
Will you be here? Sit next to me?And be mine..
It's sad..
Love it's to sad..
It give us heart breaks..
Tears that fall is it worth it?
Loving someone that won't be yours is it worth it?
What is true love meaning?
Seeing the one that you love be happy with someone else?
Let her go?
Is that the meaning of true love?
No matter how hurt my heart gonna breaks..
I'll still love her..
I'll try to be there for her even thousand water falls from my eyes..
I don't event care about my heart but I care about her heart..
She has a soft heart and I don't want anyone break it..
It's better if my heart that breaks than her heart..
People said smoking kills..
They said smoking having no use then kill them self..
It has no good..
But..
What is the different between smoking and loving someone?
Heart breaks can make people suicide..
Love can make people lose their mind..
Lost their soul..
Smoking kills slowly same like love it kills slowly..
Every cigarettes contains toxic..
Every heart contains heart breaks..
It's sad when people blame cigarettes
But..
They never blame what love has done..
It's sad really sad..
When mad at someone because they smoke..
When doesn't someone because he is smoking..
They never think what he has been trough..
How many pieces his heart has broke into..
How much tears has fall..
Did she knows it or even realize it?
Sadly not..
Is it better to gone from the society?
Being alone is it better?
Because once you are alone no one can hurt you..
