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King of the Dark

They say that eyes are the windows of our soul

But looking deep within, there's nothing to be seen at all

Though soon you'll find it out as tears come out to crawl

And those once beautiful and lively eyes start to get dull

Next, that smile? Will turn upside down

That bloody skin will turn pale now

The darkness soon eats you, on a throne awaits a crown

Those demons lurking will come and bow

Behold! A king of his own world with colors drained

With his lost soul, his mind and heart being detained

But he doesn't mind, for after all his loss he finally accepts what he gained

And thy king of his very own kingdom shall forever reign

-11:05pm//111118

-m.j.e//ferdemine

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I Am

I am unfathomable and obscure
I wonder how much more I can endure
I hear my screaming thoughts when it's silent
I see things are getting more violent
I want to know if there's a cure
I am unfathomable and obscure

I pretend I still have my sanity
I feel the loss of my clarity
I touch the depths of my abyss
I worry if I still have a bliss
I cry for my demons they lure
I am unfathomable and obscure

I understand my other self
I say everything has their hidden shelf
I dream of the Grim Reaper's call
I try so hard not to lose it all
I hope someday I will be sure
I am unfathomable and obscure

Template: I Am
-11:13pm//111118
-m.j.e//ferdemine
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Soulmate

To whom I acknowledge as my soulmate

There's not a single thing about you someone could hate

I know I'm not the only one whom you can catch off guard at any rate

Everything was too early, I'd rather have it late

It's my fault, I'm to blame and don't even try to disagree

I rushed everything, my feelings just got the best of me

I was a fool and too stupid to be true, so how much more naive and timid can I be?

And the only word I said that made sense but was also senseless was "sorry"

It was silly of me I know, you had me falling for you and it only took a couple of days

I'm now regretting the things I've said, only the ones that felt like mistakes

But those couple of days I spent talking with you? Felt like no time can replace

I was lost trying to get out of these feelings but you're a deep maze

Just by knowing a person like you exists I don't feel so blue

You're so unpredictable that I never had a single clue

If only we could forget about it and start again I'd like to

I wanted to keep a rare precious gem but instead I lost you

Everything I said were all true, I just felt like taking the chances

I took the risks thinking that the chance of losing you will be less

You've sent some butterflies in my stomach that also made me tense

Maybe those are the reasons I started making no sense

Thanks though! You made me write again without me forcing myself

I learned quite a lot of things from you and It'll be a great help

To you I'm indebt

That song? It became my favorite, still listening to it while lying in bed

This poem is just for you, to remind you that you are great

And after everything that has been said and done?

I'm just glad I happened to meet someone whom I can call my soulmate

-1:23am//041119

-m.j.e//ferdemine

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Quatrains

I just want to stare at you so badly
'Cause you're such a beautiful view
You're skin like white rose petals
Wounded by your thorns that I pursue

-date forgotten
-m.j.e//ferdemine
××

Looking in to your eyes is already stargazing
I admire thee for everything about you is amazing
Your lips are red like strawberry, so sweet
You're so hot that I can't even take the heat

-date forgotten
-m.j.e//ferdemine
××××
My Random Shits

Another bottle to drink, and I already had lost my count. Another cigarette I lit, is this enough to make my lungs give up? I'm not drunk, you can say that I am now brave. Maybe this time I can do more than just harming myself and once I wake up after passing out? I wish I don't...

-12:21pm//090719
-m.j.e//ferdemine
××

I'm back on the edge, with my back facing the sunset on the end of the ocean, with it's waves crashing beneath this cliff I'm standing on. I don't know why I keep going back, why am I here? I don't want to leave but I know deep down inside me that I don't want to stay neither. Should I walk away again? or should I finally make the jump?

-2:11pm//090619
-m.j.e//ferdemine
××

Eventually we will risk ourselves

To dive other oceans which waters we've never felt

Saving those who drowns in their own hell

-6:57pm//102419

-m.j.e//ferdemine
××××

×Thread Unfinished×

King of the Dark

They say that eyes are the windows of our soul

But looking deep within, there's nothing to be seen at all

Though soon you'll find it out as tears come out to crawl

And those once beautiful and lively eyes start to get dull

Next, that smile? Will turn upside down

That bloody skin will turn pale now

The darkness soon eats you, on a throne awaits a crown

Those demons lurking will come and bow

Behold! A king of his own world with colors drained

With his lost soul, his mind and heart being detained

But he doesn't mind, for after all his loss he finally accepts what he gained

And thy king of his very own kingdom shall forever reign

-11:05pm//111118

-m.j.e//ferdemine

××××

I Am

I am unfathomable and obscure
I wonder how much more I can endure
I hear my screaming thoughts when it's silent
I see things are getting more violent
I want to know if there's a cure
I am unfathomable and obscure

I pretend I still have my sanity
I feel the loss of my clarity
I touch the depths of my abyss
I worry if I still have a bliss
I cry for my demons they lure
I am unfathomable and obscure

I understand my other self
I say everything has their hidden shelf
I dream of the Grim Reaper's call
I try so hard not to lose it all
I hope someday I will be sure
I am unfathomable and obscure

Template: I Am
-11:13pm//111118
-m.j.e//ferdemine
××××
Soulmate

To whom I acknowledge as my soulmate

There's not a single thing about you someone could hate

I know I'm not the only one whom you can catch off guard at any rate

Everything was too early, I'd rather have it late

It's my fault, I'm to blame and don't even try to disagree

I rushed everything, my feelings just got the best of me

I was a fool and too stupid to be true, so how much more naive and timid can I be?

And the only word I said that made sense but was also senseless was "sorry"

It was silly of me I know, you had me falling for you and it only took a couple of days

I'm now regretting the things I've said, only the ones that felt like mistakes

But those couple of days I spent talking with you? Felt like no time can replace

I was lost trying to get out of these feelings but you're a deep maze

Just by knowing a person like you exists I don't feel so blue

You're so unpredictable that I never had a single clue

If only we could forget about it and start again I'd like to

I wanted to keep a rare precious gem but instead I lost you

Everything I said were all true, I just felt like taking the chances

I took the risks thinking that the chance of losing you will be less

You've sent some butterflies in my stomach that also made me tense

Maybe those are the reasons I started making no sense

Thanks though! You made me write again without me forcing myself

I learned quite a lot of things from you and It'll be a great help

To you I'm indebt

That song? It became my favorite, still listening to it while lying in bed

This poem is just for you, to remind you that you are great

And after everything that has been said and done?

I'm just glad I happened to meet someone whom I can call my soulmate

-1:23am//041119

-m.j.e//ferdemine

××××
Quatrains

I just want to stare at you so badly
'Cause you're such a beautiful view
You're skin like white rose petals
Wounded by your thorns that I pursue

-date forgotten
-m.j.e//ferdemine
××

Looking in to your eyes is already stargazing
I admire thee for everything about you is amazing
Your lips are red like strawberry, so sweet
You're so hot that I can't even take the heat

-date forgotten
-m.j.e//ferdemine
××××
My Random Shits

Another bottle to drink, and I already had lost my count. Another cigarette I lit, is this enough to make my lungs give up? I'm not drunk, you can say that I am now brave. Maybe this time I can do more than just harming myself and once I wake up after passing out? I wish I don't...

-12:21pm//090719
-m.j.e//ferdemine
××

I'm back on the edge, with my back facing the sunset on the end of the ocean, with it's waves crashing beneath this cliff I'm standing on. I don't know why I keep going back, why am I here? I don't want to leave but I know deep down inside me that I don't want to stay neither. Should I walk away again? or should I finally make the jump?

-2:11pm//090619
-m.j.e//ferdemine
××

Eventually we will risk ourselves

To dive other oceans which waters we've never felt

Saving those who drowns in their own hell

-6:57pm//102419

-m.j.e//ferdemine
××××

×Thread Unfinished×