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i'm a survivor and i hope someone need it.

i've been in relationship with my ex on august 2019-june 2020. she's my type and some of my friends told me that she's a red flag. she called me 'baboon' because of my weight and we have on/off relationship through out the months. the day we broke up my whole world shattered, like i'm not doing great, i stopped writing (i'm an author), and i stop drawing.

i've been depressed since. all i did is hurt myself and whenever i saw sharp object i have that urged to ended up myself. i've been coped the pain with hurting myself and i kept drowned myself, i try to hanged myself once and the rope kept broken. i searched online and found this service (and i'm not going to share one, because it's still exists and real place). they claimed that they are a service that will help you to taken your own life with various way.

my goal was collected money and go there.. like i don't care how i searched that money and ended up things. i came out as a lesbian to my parents on december 2019, and they cut me financially and everything, but they agreed to let me live under they roof until i got money to move out.

how i coped with the heartbreak is unexpected like my phone suddenly broken, i've got scammed and drained my savings, and my old laptop is broken. my parents gave me old phone and there's a post that stated 'if she left you, she's not worthy of you,' and suddenly i realized its true and something inside me like 'if we not broke up, she's a green flag, she patient with me, never called me baboon because of my weight, or returned my diary and not dumped it,' it took me weeks even months to reflected all my mistakes. and luckly, i have a friend and he agreed to become my therapist and he not charged me, but in returned i helped him to spread the word about him.

at first it was so difficult. very difficult like the pain is visible and there. i've been dwelled with acceptance for months, joined community, and focus on my career. i've been heard from several mutual friends that she's been married to a guy, and i felt sad and maybe it's for the best and the part of me still want her, but in indonesia where we found two curved janur kuning, you can't stole her/him. it symbolist as marriage in my tradition. so what can i do? nothing. just accept and moved on. 

how she's doing now? she stalked me. since we broke up, she kept stalking me even now she has husband and kid. maybe its my fault gave her access to all my primary e-mail and social media. i've been locked up for almost four months because of her action. i asked her nicely, she ignored and not admit it. i knew it was her because of google searched, like google gave the result whenever we are like me, and i'm not out of the town at all.

and i confront her and ended up with bruises and broken arm from falling the stairs. my last straw.. when she sabotage my book, i remember exactly where i left and she deleted it. at this point i don't know if she do it on purpose or accident, but i felt like frustrated. she blocked me every where, why i can't have my peace? i called my friend and he's a lawyer. i asked him to gave me pro buono 'cause i'm broke, like nothing left.

we came from jakarta to bandung just to met her family, we've done mediation and the whole family knew the truth she's hiding. include her husband and neighbors (we brought police just in case). and she admitted that she's the one who locked me up from my primary email.. that happened in 2022-2024. and she also messed up my mobile legend account like once i'm on mythic rank and its downgrade to master iii. for several mobile legend players, is slandering.

i can brought her to the court 'cause according to indonesian law, she 'disturbed', stalked, and 'caused me damage to my business. she can received up to 20-30 yrs or and fined up to 2bil idr, but her economy is bad, and social punishment is enough. after that i never want to know about her anymore, but i send a message a long one about my life update to her e-mail and it happened on her birthday last year for aa closure.

i do better now.. like i've met people and several of them are.. nice, sometimes just found a random asshole people and still recovering. i realized that i'm not alone, and people may have their own problem and how they cope with it are different too., i have my own podcast company and its doing great, i'm not stop writing and drawing i'm just healing and start to write again next year. for drawing i don't know. i still in therapy, but not that often now.

i hope someone in this situation, please.. don't give up. i know its frustrating and tiring, just hang in there. you're not alone. we just have same problem, but on different level.

 i'm lying if i'm not saying that i want to see what karma gets her now. i wanted to see it and laughed at her face, but seems like god prohibit me to doing so.. what can i do.

i want to write thank you and i'm sorry. thank you is for leadership, councils, captains, and everyone who make a hit. this is my first elim and i don't know why some of people feel upset not become in the 1st place, but for me its enough.

i'm sorry too because i'm too busy with my work and i'm not making suggestion because of discouragement. i know might be some of you will be mad if i say this. i farmed apex and reptilians (mostly not following orders), because their come back. i want to make suggestions at the general chat, but i don't have courage 'cause seems like everyone will thinking i'm trying to 'stole' the leadership.

i can read statistic since i'm graduated in that college major in irl. i read their movement since the first elimination day. (at sept,10th). and since then, apex and reptilians always become my farmed target. when i informed that we have alliance with apex, tbh i feel disappointed, but still i'm afraid to tell any suggestions and maybe some of you will mad at me, but i'm sorry really i am.

i wish i can turn back time and tell you this.. i'm truly sorry i am.

props to the leadership. we start with 0 tickets (at the bottom) and finished at 2nd place is a huge achievement so far. all the members working hard. thank you for being awesome.

thank you all..

p.s. btw i finished in 22% with 103 attacks. for me its a big achievement.

I hope nuke faction will recover as soon as possible. I feel you, somehow.

I know you guys are mad and upset, but use this as learning for the future. For the leader, please be strong. Don't blame yourself, I know you can't control what happened but hang in there... maybe it's the way nuclear will return stronger.

All best wishes for her. 

New player here... so that means we only CAN use whitlisted script like bsp, egg hunter, or everything else except that could rigged the game? @LoginPanel07

I'm a newbie. And I don't know what the og Torn looks like. I enjoyed Torn so far and it's helping me to inspired for my book development, but I respect your opinion.

I just not trained, logged off, repeat. I think like Torn is better, than any game MMORPG I played before. I'm playing dozens of game that I kept playing around 18 text-based games.

I guess, it's just different on how other people played style. I really enjoy the grind. Not just trained, logged off, and repeat.

this is where i posted about events, discount, and many more!

so that means... TCSE is useless? 'cause i've seen tornsys.com's dev added TCSE to the list. so... it's 3 years now and is there any TCSE before?

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P.S. Ex-tasy that means Ecstasy. since it's bring us "joy" so it's more like Die With A Smile song. heartbreak, but it will bring joy. Duke is sounds like a title. i also referring to the NPC character Duke[4]. the effect, i rather choose 80's cartoon because it's represent the 80s pop culture and i read some of 80s cartoon style. GRAY is real artist. he was a korean rapper (his genre is HipHop not K-POP) and he was former CEO of AOMG (along side with Jay Park). 

all the genre is 80s pop-rock songs. since it's perfect with the atmosphere and the album cover.