I lost my cat, my daughter...

As the title implies, unfortunately, I lost my cat...

Rest in peace...

7-Nov-2024 to 11-Jun-2026

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I haven't told anyone in my rl yet, other than my best friend, so I wanna share it here...

She was the sweetest cat out there. We had her her entire life, as she was born, and died.. In our house.

We had her mother when she gave birth to her, and her 3 brothers. The mother and all the brothers were so messy, always noisy, going outside to play in the dirt whenever they have the opportunity, and that's why they no longer stay in the house. But she, she was the exact opposite. She was so polite, quite, and never really tired us. Only her stayed inside.

My phone is full of pictures of her, we've had tons of memories together, on her first birthday, Christmas, and soooo much more.

All the times she slept next to me, woke me up, all the biscuits, purring, everything. We really loved each other.

I've had a couple months, where only she (other than food and water) was the reason I was still going..

Fast forward to a few weeks ago, she got so sick.. we took her to multiple vets, spent hundreds of bucks on her medications, and really tried our best.. But the vets were just saying her condition is only getting worse....

Yesterday, she was finally free from all the suffering. I'm really happy for her, but, but I'm breaking apart...

The way I found her on her bed, and I knew something was wrong. I picked her up, and she was completely paralyzed, not a single muscle moving, not even to flinch when a fly landed on her ear. I picked her up, with tears, she was really slipping.. We stayed there for like 3 hours, her on my lap... Her last voluntary move was, was raising her paw, shaking, and she placed it on my arm... 

Then it was just reflexes/twitching.. I was told that it's better for both of us to just leave her in her bed now, and just check on her from time to time.

She laid there an extra 9 hours, when she finally passed... It really was one of the worst moments in my life, but I was so happy for her.. she was screaming out of pain, so seeing her go was so releaving.

But now, I already miss her... And idk, when did I actually lose her?

• When she stopped doing her zoomies, running around, no one being able to catch her, to stopping to rest after 5 slow steps?
• Was it when she almost stopped eating?
• Or when she lost her agility... Not landing even the smallest jumps, and instead fall on her side?
• Maybe when she no longer sleeps in her favourite spots, but rather under our beds, cause they require jumping to get into?
• She stopped pushing doors to open them, and just lay in front of them waiting for us to open them. With her trembling walk...
• Her no longer licking/cleaning herself..?
• The time when even saying a quiet "Meow" was a challenge..
• Or was it when she stopped eating completely. Not even her favourite snack :(
• Maybe when a fly landed in front of her.. and she didn't chase it. She always used to chase insects, even climb and jump behind flys, until she catches them. This one really broke me..
• Could be when her tail no longer start jumping when I call her name..
• Or when she stopped purring when we cuddle...
• Maybe when she didn't even come to cuddle anymore to begin with..
• It could be when I started checking for a pulse everytime I see her laying...
• People may say its when her pulse finally stopped, or when she was buried...

I really don't know what to do now. She's my pfp on almost all platforms, and looking at her is breaking me... I might buy a couple gfxs of her, to replace my pfps..

Edit: I made one. Here

17:52:35 - 12/06/26 You were sent $100,000,000 from KingABz.

Thanks so much, really the best someone said/did to me about the whole thing.. <3

20:21:42 - 16/06/26 budrace sent a Parcel to you. Much appreciated mate, thanks again :)💙

Thanks to everyone and all the gfx gifts I got... They can be viewed with the link above!

Sorry if there are any typos or grammatical errors, I didn't proof read anything, it's still an impulsive essay..

I’m really sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine how devastated you are.

My condolences on your cat MG7. Read the whole thing and i feel myself break especially on every bullet points you made when she's struggling near her time. Can't imagine your pain to witness all those things with her in real life. 

Tho, im sure she's in a better place now. No pain and just enjoying her good memories that she have. And i know she's grateful that she's got you as his companion while she's alive. 

Hope you'll get through this and feel those grief properly. Its fine to breakdown since the wound is pretty much raw at this point. You've got this! 

Thanks so much.. Yeah, writing them was hard, had to do it in the span of a couple days, each one of them hit the faucet..

I really hope so, she deserves some peace, she really was a fighter. I'm glad I got to get such a polite cat myself. So lucky to have her..

Thanks again for the kind words <3