Hey, I’m not trying to beg for attention or try to get sympathy but I wanted to share how my life and mental health has been. So I was struggling with mental health at 19 to 23 years old and under that period my father died of overdose, I was so depressed and sad under that period and I was close to taking my own life. My mom and brother has meant the world to me because it was they who said I needed therapy, it was also them who was there at 3 am just holding me. The first time they proposed therapy I didn’t listen and it was after I had tried to c*t myself 4 times when I realized that my life actually could get better if I tried. After about 3 years in therapy I still don’t feel completely healed but I definitely feel better. So I just wanted to thank my mom, my brother and all the people supporting people that has mental health issues. You matter, there are people who cares about you, people who will feel worse then you if you take your life. There is people to talk to and talk to them, even if it’s hard do it. And again I’m not begging for sympathy<3
Standard Torn raffles are pretty boring. You buy a ticket, forget you entered, and check back three days later to find out someone's alt won again. I wanted to build something with actual suspense, so I’ve been working on a concept called THE LAST STAND.
It’s a season-based survival event where players enter by pooling Xanax. Instead of a standard random draw, you have to survive a series of brutal disasters. The more Xanax you contribute, the higher your survival weight and your odds of making it through each round. At set intervals, a disaster strikes, wipes out a percentage of the roster, and the survivors advance. This keeps repeating until only one player is left standing to take the season prize, which is currently planned to be a Donator Pack for Season 01.
Every season will run on its own theme with its own distinct pool of disasters. Season 01 is The Collapse, featuring events like Nuclear Fallout, Outbreaks, Floods, Blackouts, Meteor Strikes, and Supply Drops. Not every event is a straight purge either, as some disasters might offer temporary reprieves or bonus survival boosts.
The main goal is to give you a real reason to keep coming back and checking the thread or site. Instead of buying a ticket and walking away, you'll actually be logging in to see if you survived the last round, how many players are left, or why someone decided to throw in 30 Xanax.
Rather than cluttering the forums with endless manual updates, I'm planning a dedicated web dashboard for it. It will show a live countdown to the next disaster, the active survivor roster, total Xanax pooled, live elimination feeds, and a Hall of Survivors to track past winners and statistics.
Since I’m still fine-tuning the exact mechanics, prize structures, and elimination math before writing the site code, nothing is set in stone. I’d love to hear your feedback on chaotic disaster ideas, future season themes, or specific mechanics that would make you want to participate.
And yes, there will definitely be at least one disaster that makes everyone question their life choices.
Hey, I’m not trying to beg for attention or try to get sympathy but I wanted to share how my life and mental health has been. So I was struggling with mental health at 19 to 23 years old and under that period my father died of overdose, I was so depressed and sad under that period and I was close to taking my own life. My mom and brother has meant the world to me because it was they who said I needed therapy, it was also them who was there at 3 am just holding me. The first time they proposed therapy I didn’t listen and it was after I had tried to c*t myself 4 times when I realized that my life actually could get better if I tried. After about 3 years in therapy I still don’t feel completely healed but I definitely feel better. So I just wanted to thank my mom, my brother and all the people supporting people that has mental health issues. You matter, there are people who cares about you, people who will feel worse then you if you take your life. There is people to talk to and talk to them, even if it’s hard do it. And again I’m not begging for sympathy<3
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